Big Problems?

Today, I am having a pity-party.  I am feeling sorry for myself.  Actually, I don't know what I'm feeling, but, it is rather nice trying to figure that out.  Usually, I don't feel anything, so it is nice feeling something, even though it is unpleasant.  

I went out for a drive and found myself parked in a parking lot and just thinking.  Not really thinking, just staring blankly.  There are three people standing ahead of me.  Two gentleman and one woman.  The two men are negotiating a price for the afternoon's company of the woman.  They agree on a price but for three women as the guy has a friend.  They guy who is paying gives the address and then goes off.  The remaining guy and the woman are trying to figure out how to get two more women.  I look down at the floor mat.  The woman starts pounding my car hood telling me to mind my own business and I am the ugliest, fattest, stupidest bitch that she has ever seen.  My first instinct is to look her in the eye and show that she has hurt me so that she can have the satisfaction of being right.  Strangely, I want there to be a win for this woman.  I want her to be happy.  Unfortunately, she hasn't hurt me and I think looking her in the eye would escalate the situation and that wouldn't be good for anyone.  They move on.  

I really do hope that she got some satisfaction out of yelling at me.  

It is probably not the best example of getting satisfaction but if it works for her, then, that's fine.  I really don't mind being yelled at by a random stranger.  I'm not pleased that she was banging on my car hood, but, that is not a huge deal.  

It was actually a good thing for both of us.  It jolted me out of my pity party.  I have lots to be grateful for.  I am very blessed.  I am very thankful that I have choices in this world.  I can dwell on what is missing in my life or I can focus on abundance.  Some days, that is harder to do, but, I am going to work hard at it today.  

Life is what we make of it.  Today, I am going to look for what is right.  

Comments

  1. Common Sense Revolution; Social Justice Warrior10 August 2019 at 13:29

    Actually this was at a Sobey’s parking lot. There are no “good” neighbourhoods anymore

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